Recently, I ran into this youtube video that teaches how to perform palm reading. Being curious, as usual, I spent good 30 minutes watching the clips. At the end of the session I realized that I have no fate line, something the majority people has, and I am restless in terms of my way of living. Being fate less does not bother me as much as being restless. Over the past 23 years I have changed places at least 7 times, that leaves me with approximately 3 constant years in the same neighborhood, city, country. In fact, I don't know what it means to have a house with an attic or a basement where all of your junk is stored. Everything comes to me from IKEA catalog. At times, I think that my entire life is like a comic book, where scenes change on every page. I wonder if I'll ever settle down in a particular city for long enough to actually hold a garage sale, bake cookies for the neighbors, know the coffee man in the next door cafe and have the same chat with a neighbor every weekend. But then I question myself, "Can I really handle the routine?" Let's be honest here. Being able to predict my future actions kills me. In fact, my relationships with men don't last longer than 6 months. The minute I know his actions, it tanks and becomes annoying. So, what is it that I am missing to normalize my life? Will this restless behavior shadow me until my death bed? And once again I am left with questions and no answers. Perhaps, sole routine questioning is the only anchor I have.
Truly yours,
Московская вьюга
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