Tuesday, 27 July 2010

A ship without anchor

Recently, I ran into this youtube video that teaches how to perform palm reading. Being curious, as usual, I spent good 30 minutes watching the clips. At the end of the session I realized that I have no fate line, something the majority people has, and I am restless in terms of my way of living. Being fate less does not bother me as much as being restless. Over the past 23 years I have changed places at least 7 times, that leaves me with approximately 3 constant years in the same neighborhood, city, country. In fact, I don't know what it means to have a house with an attic or a basement where all of your junk is stored. Everything comes to me from IKEA catalog. At times, I think that my entire life is like a comic book, where scenes change on every page. I wonder if I'll ever settle down in a particular city for long enough to actually hold a garage sale, bake cookies for the neighbors, know the coffee man in the next door cafe and have the same chat with a neighbor every weekend. But then I question myself, "Can I really handle the routine?" Let's be honest here. Being able to predict my future actions kills me. In fact, my relationships with men don't last longer than 6 months. The minute I know his actions, it tanks and becomes annoying. So, what is it that I am missing to normalize my life? Will this restless behavior shadow me until my death bed?

And once again I am left with questions and no answers. Perhaps, sole routine questioning is the only anchor I have.

Truly yours,
Московская вьюга

Tuesday, 13 July 2010

Who needs a post-gradute these days?

So, here I am, almost done with my post-graduate degree at one of the elite universities in the world. Employers, according to a bunch of magazines/agencies that compile school rankings, should be lining up with job offers. In reality, I am the one who is hunting down employers and constantly looking for a job. Surely, I am not expecting to get a job right away, but being ruled out for stupid things like: too self-confident or HR reduced the number of vacancies - sounds a bit pathetic. How many more resumes, cover letter and applications should I send out before getting an offer. Back in the days it used to be 25-50, now it seems like an infinite number. Sometimes I just want to raise my hand up and say, "Guys, the recession is over, come on now! Hire me! I'll slave like no one at your department. I am smart, I can do this job!" Unfortunately, no one sees my hand and no one wants to hear me either, as there is plenty of fish in the sea with bigger teeth. So I keep sending resumes, cover letters and filling out applications on-line, perhaps, there is someone out there who is interested in hiring a loyal, hard working post-graduate. Whoever you are, I will find you and we'll work together for a while!
Truly yours,
Московская вьюга

Friday, 5 March 2010

Lost In Translation: the case of Russia

Russia’s behavior over the past decade has puzzled Western politicians and commentators, who have swung from proclaiming a new Cold War with Russia to calling for a “reset” in relations. Russia’s perceived attempts to blackmail Ukraine, Belarus and Moldova over gas supply, imported goods, presidential elections and political splits followed by military invasion of Georgia in August 2008 vexed many diplomats in the West. It is assumed that Russia is trying to recover its influence in the region by advancing its geostrategic interests. Such conclusions should be drawn with caution. Russia’s foreign policy is constructed by the most influential monopoly in Russia – Gazprom, rather than independent political elites.
In States, Firms and Diplomacy, Susan Strange argued that since the collapse of USSR, the understanding of power has shifted from military capabilities to wealth, implying that companies responsible for the majority of state’s revenue posses significant leverage over domestic and foreign policies ratified by the political elites. In the case of Russia, this shift in power can be traced back to the emergence of oligarchs who steered macroeconomic policies during Yeltsin epoch. Woods and Gould-Davies demonstrated such interdependence in, Russia and the IMF, indicating that Yeltsin administration lost its power to the small group of oligarchs who directed Russia’s domestic and foreign policies creating favorable conditions for their businesses until Yeltsin’s resignation in December 1999.
Since 2000, Gazprom’s interests turned into Russia’s interests. The concept of crony capitalism, once coined by the former Managing Director of the IMF Michael Camdessus, still holds true in present day Russia. Foreign policies proclaimed by the Medvedev (and earlier, Putin) administrations are focused on increasing Gazprom’s revenues, which is one of the primary sources of the national budget.
The energy industry accounts for about 20% of Russia’s GDP, approximately 64% of its export revenues, 30% of foreign direct investment, and well over 40% of the government’s fiscal revenue. The Russian government, heavily tied to the largest money making machine Gazprom, has shifted from diversification of the national economy to controlling the largest pipeline network in Eurasia. Consequentially, if neighboring countries such as Ukraine or Belarus have problems paying their invoices and/or cause constant disruption of gas supply to the European clients, Russia takes it as an opportunity to blackmail the transit state in hopes that eventually the accumulated debt will be covered by transfer of energy assets (pipeline networks) from the indebt state to Gazprom.
There is no reemergence of the Cold War. Instead, it is a puppet show where Gazprom, headed by Prime Minister V.V. Putin, pulls the strings of the political elites. To constrain Russia’s scramble for pipelines, the West needs to ensure that neither Ukraine nor any other transit state accumulates large debts with Gazprom. The rules of this game are straight forward, although they have been neglected by the Western powers for a decade. Perhaps, these rules got lost in translation when Gerhard Schroder, former Chancellor of Germany, started lobbying for Gazprom’s project in Europe - the North Stream pipeline…

Saturday, 16 January 2010

Moscow-Minsk: travel in time


December 30, 2009 - I am on the train heading to Minsk. Minsk - approximately 700 km away from Moscow. 1 country border to cross, though no passport control. Traveling to Minsk is like rewinding the tape and going back in time to the late 1980s. Things are old, rusty and soviet-like. Nothing has changed in Belarus, except introduction of modern cell phones and vogue. People are warm and welcoming, not spoiled by big bucks yet. Nevertheless, living there is not an option. The country is in ruins, which are produced domestically and sold domestically. Life is on hold there. Progress is forbidden. Foreign influence is limited to none. One man show is in progress. No interruptions, fake laughs and controlled applause. A puppet show, indeed.

I am not judging, I am observing.

Truly yours,

Московская вьюга

Thursday, 14 May 2009

Счастье, наверное, все же есть...

Работа - средство заработка.

Миллионы никому не нужны.

Хочется на необитаемый остров!

А ещё лучше вернуться в детство. Что бы воздушный шарик и мороженое...
Куда все делось??? Где нормальные человеческие отношения. Чем 21 век лучше 20-ого? Где романтика, приключения и сладкое слово Свобода?

Надеюсь на лучшее, я же оптимист.

Wednesday, 30 April 2008

Размышления

Вечная борьба за место под солнцем.
Сколько нам этой жизни дано,
Что бы вечно грызть гранит,
Отбирать добро у других,
Смеяться, когда соперник падает.

Кому и зачем это надо?
Кто придумал такой уклад жизни?
Неужели нельзя жить иначе?

Я не верю Дарвину.
Я не хочу ему верить.
Надоело жить, сравнивая себя и свой достаток с другими.

Борьба за выживание - унижение для всех.
Всегда есть кто-то лучше.
Безупречность бесконечна.
Мы же стремимся постичь необъятное за 70-80 лет жизни.

Может стоит познать саму жизнь, а не крайности человеческого поведения?

Friday, 18 May 2007

Irony is present

Quick blog: the LSE is known for its colossal library that combines books on politics and economics. Finance and Math got their spots at the stocks too. One day, being sick of politics and quantitative readings, I have decided to take a break and read some fictional literature such as Dostoevsky, Tolstoy, or Pushkin. It was a day of classics. I go up to the third floor of library and discovered a section titled "Russian Catalog." To my surprise Pushkin, Dostoevsky, and Tolstoy were not worth enough to be stocked at the LSE. However, I did find piles of magazines authored or edited by Trotsky, Lenin, Stalin and etc. All of them were in Russian. My conclusion is that once you are at the LSE, nothing else matters except economics and politics.
Big dilemma occurs then because according to the Russian poet, Tutchev:

Not by the mind is Russia understood,
Nor is she measured by a common rule:
She has a special stature of her own;
In Russia one can only put his faith.